Do I feel foolish, or am I foolish? Because right now, my “pain” which I thought I was healed from, has returned… with a bang… and it’s quite serious. So much so, I have to go to the doctor tomorrow and I may have to undergo surgery, the very thing I feared!
Do I feel God has abandoned me? The moment I think that, I think of Job. Man that guy must have really suffered… and I confess that my pain is not that bad, and yet I do not want to forsake God, because I’m pretty sure that he has not forsaken me.
Still, it is really frustrating that this pain has returned… almost like sin itself! Can’t fully get rid of it.
Without recourse to much theology, today I beseech God to really heal me. Completely. Please Lord, heal me.